Do you ever get that deep sinking feeling you may have made a poor decision?
Tobias is sick...
They told me he had kennel cough when I got him and they gave me medication for him.
He was fine until last night. Suddenly he stopped eating.
So I took him to the vet this morning...and $140.00 later he has a new set of pills, food supplement, and got a hydration bolus.
I feel so bad!
And to make matters worse, I'm going to camp all of next week. So now I have no control over whether or not he gets his treatment...
And now Caleb has to take care of him.
So would it have been better for him to get euthenized there at the shelter?
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Sin
I do not understand how people can knowingly hurt the ones thay love again and again...
It's a painful mystery.
It seems like if a person took just one second to imagine what it would be like toward themselves they would not go foreward with their schemes.
I can understand mistakes, but blatent continuance...
Why does God put up with us?
It's a painful mystery.
It seems like if a person took just one second to imagine what it would be like toward themselves they would not go foreward with their schemes.
I can understand mistakes, but blatent continuance...
Why does God put up with us?
Friday, July 22, 2011
Home!
Toby's home finally!!
He has kennel cough though :( but so far it's not too bad. Just have to give him pills twice a day.
He is such a good puppy though! He goes to the bathroom outside when I take him, he doesn't put things in his mouth, he sleeps like a hound (constantly)...although he absolutely hates baths. He bayed the whole time.
I love him. :)
And I am exhausted.
All this driving wears me out.
SO worth it.
He has kennel cough though :( but so far it's not too bad. Just have to give him pills twice a day.
He is such a good puppy though! He goes to the bathroom outside when I take him, he doesn't put things in his mouth, he sleeps like a hound (constantly)...although he absolutely hates baths. He bayed the whole time.
I love him. :)
And I am exhausted.
All this driving wears me out.
SO worth it.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Long Night, Long Day
Meeting day:
I feel a bit ridiculous saying this, but I literally could not sleep last night.
We went to bed at 10:30 and I tossed, and I turned...it was like Christmas Eve. Way too excited. I've never had an actual puppy before! Only adult dogs.
I laid there and finally at 2:30 I got up and took half a dose of acetaminophen PM.
...at three I was still wide awake, so I took the other half of the dose. I slept from just before 4, to 6.
SO I was a little afraid of falling asleep driving on the way to the shelter.
But it was definitely not difficult. It was great to have girl time with my sister. We chatted the entire time.
We made it to LA to meet our possible new family member at 15 min past opening.
And he was still there. No name to claim him.
We found him and met him, and my goodness he's SUCH a sweetie. His personality is a lot like Chester's (Chester is our other dog), only with a little more puppy spunk.
We were not allowed to take him out of the kennel.
So we had driven 3.75 hours to stick our fingers through the fence...
But it was SO worth it.
He loved me immediately, and I loved him too :)
He has the cutest ears, his feet are ginormous, and he howls a little when you get him riled up and then stop petting him. Adorable.
He will be released this coming Friday at 2 pm. I cannot be any later than 4, or they can give him to someone else...
Lord willing, he will be home in 48 hours :)
Meet Tobias.
I feel a bit ridiculous saying this, but I literally could not sleep last night.
We went to bed at 10:30 and I tossed, and I turned...it was like Christmas Eve. Way too excited. I've never had an actual puppy before! Only adult dogs.
I laid there and finally at 2:30 I got up and took half a dose of acetaminophen PM.
...at three I was still wide awake, so I took the other half of the dose. I slept from just before 4, to 6.
SO I was a little afraid of falling asleep driving on the way to the shelter.
But it was definitely not difficult. It was great to have girl time with my sister. We chatted the entire time.
We made it to LA to meet our possible new family member at 15 min past opening.
And he was still there. No name to claim him.
We found him and met him, and my goodness he's SUCH a sweetie. His personality is a lot like Chester's (Chester is our other dog), only with a little more puppy spunk.
We were not allowed to take him out of the kennel.
So we had driven 3.75 hours to stick our fingers through the fence...
But it was SO worth it.
He loved me immediately, and I loved him too :)
He has the cutest ears, his feet are ginormous, and he howls a little when you get him riled up and then stop petting him. Adorable.
He will be released this coming Friday at 2 pm. I cannot be any later than 4, or they can give him to someone else...
Lord willing, he will be home in 48 hours :)
Meet Tobias.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Castles and Caskets
For the past couple of weeks I have been reading Ecclesiastes, and for the first time in my life it has had the opposite effect on me. Normally it leaves me with a feeling of meaninglessness...I mean the word is used endlessly throughout!
Nah, THIS time I have this overwhelming PEACE! Never expected THAT from the book about how pointless everything is...
Being married kind of puts an emphasis on financial security, making those "ends" meet. The cost = many hours away from the one I love and many disheartened days of attempting to encourage him as he's overworked, manipulated, and grossly underpaid...I sometimes forget. I forget that God knows what's going on in a world where so many things don't seem to add up.
Solomon was the wisest man and yet he knew that even the wise die like the foolish. Sometimes the wisest of all get the shaft, while the fools live on forever. All that is meaningless...
Solomon was the richest person alive, and had every kind of pleasure he could desire, yet he still did not find satisfaction in this.
A man can work his whole life saving and striving to make a life for himself, and all that can be gone in an instant. Or even if it stays around for a while, that man still dies, and never reaps the reward of his labor. Some man he never knew could be the one who enjoys all of his hard work. So working and striving are meaningless...
We camped in San Simeon this weekend and went to tour the great Hearst Castle. The place was just immense! It had tapestries, choir chairs, imported fireplaces, statues, intricate ceilings, a movie theatre, an enormous outdoor pool, and a smaller but still vastly enormous indoor pool with gold inlaid tiles surrounding it. The upkeep was just ridiculous. They said that to clean (not even to restore) the ceiling in one room it would cost millions of dollars.
And get this. He owed so many back taxes when he died that the whole estate had to be "donated" to cover the cost.
What a legacy after a lifetime of hard toiling, dreaming, and collecting.
He did not take any of that with him. He died just like any other Shmoe...Meaningless.
In the end, being the wisest man in the world, all Solomon could muster with his wisdom is: "No one can comprehend what goes on under the sun. Despite all his efforts to search it out, man cannot discover it's meaning. Even if a wise man claims he knows, he cannot really comprehend it."
So what...?
"Go, eat your food with gladness, and drink your wine with a joyful heart, for it is now that God favors what you do. Always be clothed in white, and always annoint your head with oil. Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life God has given you under the sun-all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and your toilsome labor under the sun. Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the grave where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom." Ecc 9:7-10
"Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man." Ecc 12:13b
I think so many times we can become so caught up in "figuring it all out," finding the meaning to all that surrounds us. We catagorize, diagnose, and try to box it all up with a pretty bow that says "well bad things happen to good people because [insert philosophy here]"...and so on.
Newsflash: Life's not always pretty! If you've lived longer than a couple of minutes you might have noticed that. In fact life can be downright like a pile of human diarhhea sometimes. And it gets on you, and it gets on me, and on everyone we interact with. So messy! And most times it comes so fast we don't have time to get help from a shrink.
So what can we do??
Rely on God, who sees all, and knows all.
A lot of times I think about how confusing this world is, and I search and strive for meaning and consistency and a reason for every rhyme...or is it rhyme for every reason?...and I think: maybe God made it confusing just to confuse us. Maybe he doesn't want us to know everything, because maybe...just maybe...he wants us to rely on Him, and to trust in what we KNOW about HIS character. Maybe we'll be a little more centered if we stand on a firm Foundation.
I mean we DO know that He is trustworthy.
We know He is for us, and that He loves us deeper than we could possibly imagine.
We know that He is preparing a Home for us that will put all homes to shame.
We know that He is working everything together for His purpose. And that His purpose is for us to know Him and for us to become more and more like Him through the refining process leading to Holiness.
...I could go on and on.
And maybe I should.
Maybe I should rest in the peace that comes from knowing that even though I don't have it all figured out, I am deeply loved and protected by the One who does!
And so I will do the best with what I have, and walk in the joy and gladness that comes from being grateful for the ones I have around me.
And for the One who gave everything to know me.
Nah, THIS time I have this overwhelming PEACE! Never expected THAT from the book about how pointless everything is...
Being married kind of puts an emphasis on financial security, making those "ends" meet. The cost = many hours away from the one I love and many disheartened days of attempting to encourage him as he's overworked, manipulated, and grossly underpaid...I sometimes forget. I forget that God knows what's going on in a world where so many things don't seem to add up.
Solomon was the wisest man and yet he knew that even the wise die like the foolish. Sometimes the wisest of all get the shaft, while the fools live on forever. All that is meaningless...
Solomon was the richest person alive, and had every kind of pleasure he could desire, yet he still did not find satisfaction in this.
A man can work his whole life saving and striving to make a life for himself, and all that can be gone in an instant. Or even if it stays around for a while, that man still dies, and never reaps the reward of his labor. Some man he never knew could be the one who enjoys all of his hard work. So working and striving are meaningless...
We camped in San Simeon this weekend and went to tour the great Hearst Castle. The place was just immense! It had tapestries, choir chairs, imported fireplaces, statues, intricate ceilings, a movie theatre, an enormous outdoor pool, and a smaller but still vastly enormous indoor pool with gold inlaid tiles surrounding it. The upkeep was just ridiculous. They said that to clean (not even to restore) the ceiling in one room it would cost millions of dollars.
And get this. He owed so many back taxes when he died that the whole estate had to be "donated" to cover the cost.
What a legacy after a lifetime of hard toiling, dreaming, and collecting.
He did not take any of that with him. He died just like any other Shmoe...Meaningless.
In the end, being the wisest man in the world, all Solomon could muster with his wisdom is: "No one can comprehend what goes on under the sun. Despite all his efforts to search it out, man cannot discover it's meaning. Even if a wise man claims he knows, he cannot really comprehend it."
So what...?
"Go, eat your food with gladness, and drink your wine with a joyful heart, for it is now that God favors what you do. Always be clothed in white, and always annoint your head with oil. Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life God has given you under the sun-all your meaningless days. For this is your lot in life and your toilsome labor under the sun. Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the grave where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom." Ecc 9:7-10
"Fear God and keep His commandments, for this is the whole duty of man." Ecc 12:13b
I think so many times we can become so caught up in "figuring it all out," finding the meaning to all that surrounds us. We catagorize, diagnose, and try to box it all up with a pretty bow that says "well bad things happen to good people because [insert philosophy here]"...and so on.
Newsflash: Life's not always pretty! If you've lived longer than a couple of minutes you might have noticed that. In fact life can be downright like a pile of human diarhhea sometimes. And it gets on you, and it gets on me, and on everyone we interact with. So messy! And most times it comes so fast we don't have time to get help from a shrink.
So what can we do??
Rely on God, who sees all, and knows all.
A lot of times I think about how confusing this world is, and I search and strive for meaning and consistency and a reason for every rhyme...or is it rhyme for every reason?...and I think: maybe God made it confusing just to confuse us. Maybe he doesn't want us to know everything, because maybe...just maybe...he wants us to rely on Him, and to trust in what we KNOW about HIS character. Maybe we'll be a little more centered if we stand on a firm Foundation.
I mean we DO know that He is trustworthy.
We know He is for us, and that He loves us deeper than we could possibly imagine.
We know that He is preparing a Home for us that will put all homes to shame.
We know that He is working everything together for His purpose. And that His purpose is for us to know Him and for us to become more and more like Him through the refining process leading to Holiness.
...I could go on and on.
And maybe I should.
Maybe I should rest in the peace that comes from knowing that even though I don't have it all figured out, I am deeply loved and protected by the One who does!
And so I will do the best with what I have, and walk in the joy and gladness that comes from being grateful for the ones I have around me.
And for the One who gave everything to know me.
We're adopting!!.........a puppy.
I know. It's not the same. But it's a heck of a lot cheaper.
I read that with human adoptions there are usually at least two required trips.
The first trip it to meet the child, and the next is to finish required paperwork and visa information.
This process usually takes AT LEAST $40,000! Not including airfare. Holy crap, that's just an unfathomable amount of money for me to comprehend when I have never made more than $10,000 a year.
Caleb and I would definitely be open to adopting a child one day.
But for now, just a puppy.
"A4311776" is quite a different story. His adoption fees will come out to about $100. Unfortunately I will have to do the two trips though. Anyone interested in adopting an animal must come in person to put their name in. This ensures the dog not be euthenized on day 5. Once an interest has been established, then "day 5" becomes neuter day. Once the dog is recovered from the surgery, then he can be released. BUT on release day another person could come in and swoop to adopt the dog. So you must be there at opening to lay claim.
The shelter is in LA. That's 3.75 hours away without traffic. And we all know LA traffic...
So that's a whopping 15 hours of just driving in one week, and that doesn't even ensure that we will GET the dog!
Is it worth it?
You tell me...
I read that with human adoptions there are usually at least two required trips.
The first trip it to meet the child, and the next is to finish required paperwork and visa information.
This process usually takes AT LEAST $40,000! Not including airfare. Holy crap, that's just an unfathomable amount of money for me to comprehend when I have never made more than $10,000 a year.
Caleb and I would definitely be open to adopting a child one day.
But for now, just a puppy.
"A4311776" is quite a different story. His adoption fees will come out to about $100. Unfortunately I will have to do the two trips though. Anyone interested in adopting an animal must come in person to put their name in. This ensures the dog not be euthenized on day 5. Once an interest has been established, then "day 5" becomes neuter day. Once the dog is recovered from the surgery, then he can be released. BUT on release day another person could come in and swoop to adopt the dog. So you must be there at opening to lay claim.
The shelter is in LA. That's 3.75 hours away without traffic. And we all know LA traffic...
So that's a whopping 15 hours of just driving in one week, and that doesn't even ensure that we will GET the dog!
Is it worth it?
You tell me...
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